There is nothing romantic about artificial insemination: clinical and planned it what it is. Yet, maybe because of it, it also produces scenes that are new, sometimes awkward and sometimes funny. I call the clinic when my ovulation test is positive. I then discuss a moment during that day to be there and have the insemination. During classes is a “no” but practically any other time is possible.
Today was one of those days. In the midst of appointments I ran away from work to cycle up to the clinic. I bike though it is taking 40 minutes and it was pouring rain. It makes me quiet and relaxt….
Upon arriving in the clinic, like most times, there was someone else waiting to be inseminated. I couldn’t stop looking at the person and figuring out her story; what brought her here? Does she have a partner and where is (s)he? Does she know who is the person she gets the genes inseminated from? And it made me smile too: she is here with dreams and hopes that this time it will work. Just like me….We didn’t speak but there was bonding going on…in silence….I liked it.
It biked back to the office right after. The device with semen stays in for 5 hours and although the semen cannot get out (there is a “lid” on it) it does not necessarily go up after sitting on a bike for half hour. Back in the office I decided to do the leg-up-in-the-air- trick….right in my office, door closed and hoping no-one came in. Doing yoga breathing I was really hoping that my students would pass my door today. Telling a dear colleague later, made us both laugh. She decided to join me next time.
Because of the rushing and the clinical part of the AI, and you kind of squeeze it in in a day, it runs the risk of just another thing in a day and it should not be. That is why I really really appreciate the assistant at the clinic how always puts attention to the moment “here it is and here it goes and give it some good vibes”.